Monday, June 1, 2009

It's June!!!

Today is the first day of June. The Newest Urth is due in June! I can't tell you how much I've been anticipating the month of June arriving- feeling like it will never get here, and yet here we are! It's like a huge gust of wind has filled our sails. We are getting to the finish line, and everything is still good, and we are so close! I feel nervous and happy all at the same time.

I have prepared Mr. Mustard to be ready for me to be very emotional during the birth. As we count down the days, I become more and more of an emotional basketcase. I am so happy, but also have lots of feelings of sadness surrounding the loss of our twin daughters. I'm not sure how I'm going to react being in the hospital and delvering this baby in the same place where we delivered our girls just 11 months ago- same hospital, same doctor, same time of year.

I am trying to remember that this situation is different, this baby is different, and I need to stay present and in the moment. I know I am going to be so overwhelmed with indescribable joy when I hold this baby for the first time. I also know that it's going to be very bittersweet. I am preparing myself for the wave of emotion that I know is going to hit me on delivery day. I am focusing on enjoying this time for its beauty and not comparing this delivery to the delivery of our twins. After all the pain we have endured getting to this point, it's time to revel in the happiness our new baby brings, and enjoy this incredibly special and defining time for our family.

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After our lazy Saturday afternoon, our weekend picked up quite a bit. We ended up having a busy one!

Saturday night, Mr. Mustard and I snuck away to see Star Trek! It was soooo good. We really enjoyed it. The theater was packed with high schoolers and UCSB students, and we didn't feel old at all. ;-) The baby was moving so much during the movie- really hard kicks. Then, I started having some contractions, which reminded me a little of when I was pregnant with Paprika and we went to see Superman. Even though the theater was a normal temperature, I felt like it was 150 degrees in there. I'm glad we got to go, though. I know when we have a newborn in the house, our outings to Saturday night movies are going to be much fewer and farther between.

Mr. Mustard had the day off on Sunday, so we got to enjoy the day together! Paprika had lots of fun rough-housing with Mr. Mustard. She loves it when he makes her "fly" and does "upside down baby."

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Then we went to the Sea Center...one of Paprika's favorite places on Earth.

I got a little weepy over the unhatched baby sharks. Isn't this one cute?

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Paprika had fun playing with the hermit crabs and all the other critters. She is a sucker for all insects and creepy-crawly creatures.

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We spent a lot of time at the touch tanks:

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I had to sit down and rest a bit...36 weeks 1 day pregnant and counting!:

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After that, we had lunch at The Habit, our favorite Santa Barbara hamburger joint. It was packed, but we got a table and had fun people watching.

Then we headed over to The Natural History Museum and saw the most amazing butterfly exhibit. There were thousands of butterflies, and we got to see them up close and personal. So cool!

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