Today's Gift

Today was the 6 month anniversary of the day of Vivian and Annemarie's birth. On that day, Mr. Mustard and I experienced the hardest, most difficult day of our lives when we lost both our baby girls. They are always in our hearts and in our thoughts, and we walk through each day with the feeling that someone is missing, because they are missing. They are our second and third born daughters, and always will be. We miss them every day, but days like today are the hardest- the anniversary days.

But even though today was very hard, it was also a wonderful day. We are expecting another blessing and today we saw our beautiful little baby waving to us on the ultrasound screen.

We are excited, we are nervous, we are holding our breaths. This baby is a joyful ray of hope in what has been a very difficult year for our family. We rejoice in this baby, but we know that we are not replacing our Vivian and Annemarie- we are giving all of our girls another sibling. We know that one day our family will be reunited in Heaven, and on that day, we will see all of our children playing together.

We have a long journey ahead of us in this pregnancy. We know that nothing is guaranteed, and that what is given can also be taken away in a moment. We cherish life, and we respect it. We feel so blessed to have had 17 wonderful weeks so far with this baby, and we hope and pray that our time together is long and filled with laughter and love.

Without futher ado, we're so happy to introduce Paprika, Vivian, and Annemarie's littlest sibling!

17 weeks old: